I had this really cool session yesterday with a podcast client, Mary, and I was asking her higher self questions about like practicing telepathy and remote viewing. And I don't know why I've never really been super interested in these things, but I'm just starting to become more interested in than them. I don't know if I feel more interested in them or if I just feel

this push of understanding that and practicing that is my next step. It's kind of interesting how things unfold over here in my brain. And so I was asking her how yourself all these questions about remote viewing and telepathy and how would we practice that? And if I were to like casually run a group that does that, what would that look like? What are the benefits of it? And as she was talking,

and kind of explaining these things to me, I got all these downloads and ideas and knowings and just dot connecting about this is why it's so important, one of the many reasons why it's so important that we access our higher self. And I think this is why it isn't until now that I'm actually really truly interested in growing that part and like working with telepathy and remote viewing and just like playing in that area.

Because I feel like I've always been very sensitive, had a knowing of like, even though it wasn't always crystal clear, even if it is just like a knowing of an incongruence of like, how people...

feel about me. And you know, some of that is true. And some of that I think is like trauma and me trying to protect myself and kind of like foresee the future. And you know, this is why discernment is important. This is why knowing our energy, what is our energy, what is not our energy is all very important. Because when we expand and play and want to be more intuitive and sense more things,

it's even more important that we know who we are and what our energy is. Because as we become more open, of course, we can attract things to us and engage more with energies that maybe we decide we don't want to be a part of. And so knowing when we are being influenced in that way is important. And the way to do that is when we know what is us and what is not us and what is true and what is not true and what is.

for us and what is not for us. And we do that by connecting with our true essence, more, you know, our greater wisdom, our higher knowing, our higher self. And that's why it's so important because as I sense into these things and as someone who's always been an intuitive person, when we don't know, when I didn't know who I was, I was way more

at risk of being influenced intentionally or consciously, unconsciously. I was, I was just, had more general confusion in life. Not a lot of clarity on, you know, the details of my life and what I actually wanted and what I actually needed. And I think it was because I didn't know who I was. I didn't know what that meant.

And I was consistently looking externally to find who I was. And being a sensitive person, it was like I was being influenced even unconsciously by things I was picking up from people about me. And that's why it's so important. That's higher self work is so important. We have to know who we are and what we want. And in that way we can make highest and best decisions for us. And when they're truly highest and best for us.

They will serve everyone around us.

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So I'm not talking about doing what's right for me at the expense of others.

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sitting in my backyard, that's an airplane, I don't know if you can hear it, it sounds really loud. It feels loud. So I thought that was really cool and it made me even more excited about remote viewing and telepathy and just I feel like that stuff is getting more press and people are more talking about it and so I've just been thinking about it more and I want to practice it and it makes total sense to me now that like intuitively I would be drawn to it.

Because I'm also doing the work with the higher self, I also know myself better than I ever have. And that makes it even clearer understanding of what I'm sensing in telepathy and even less likely that I'm influenced by forces outside myself, consciously or unconsciously. So it's cool the way life comes together. I feel like that's the way it is for me right now. It's almost like I just follow a nudge.

And then when I do it, then I realize, that's why I'm doing it. And it's never just like one reason it's always so layered and braided. Layered and braided. Let me tell you about the Grand Canyon. So last time I told you about the hike I was gonna do from the South Rim to the North Rim and then North to South. And last year I had done South to North.

And this year I had kind of bigger aspirations of not only doing out and back, but then I thought it would be really fun to make it a through hike and like carry my big pack and like go out, stay overnight, like camp on the North Rim and come back. So I eventually decided to do that and I'm doing it with a friend or I did it with a friend. And it has been a while since a hike went this sideways for me, but

It is what it is. So we got up like super early. We got up at like 1 30 a.m. We were by the time we got on the trail, we were hiking in the dark for three hours. And I just am so uncomfortable hiking in the dark. But what really gets me is the lack of sleep. So that's what really being just like low on sleep. And I mean, like, didn't sleep for the night or got like three hours or less like

that will really jack up my anxiety and my fear of heights. So I was kind of feeling it right away. Yes, we had gotten up at 1.30 and the plan was to get up super early so we could like beat the heat of the day and certain parts of the trail and just to get there early and like set up camp while it was still warm and light out. anyway, so getting up at 1.30, it's like such a joke, it's the middle of the night.

So I of course woke up at like 10 30 and could not fall back to sleep. So I had gotten like two hours of sleep maybe and woke up at 10 30 and was just kind of like stressing about this hike and knowing that the trail that we were going to be on for the last few months has had pretty significant closures on it. Like you can't pass through it. And it said it was going to open the day we were hiking. And so that's why one of the reasons why we picked that day. And so I just went on the trail website again.

and read about the trail updates and this time it had been updated probably in the back half of the day and it said that the the Bright Angel Trail would be open on this day but not the River Trail or the Silver Bridge which means nothing to you and it has never meant anything to me either but that's what they called a little section of the Bright Angel Trail before or along the river and then to cross the river is the Silver Bridge.

those were not open. So it was like, you can take this detour, it adds on five miles, and you can get across the river that way. So it's like, all right, that really sucks. Like five miles with a 30 pound pack is not nothing, even though it kind of sounds like it would be a breeze. So it's like, whatever. I mean, we're here, we're leaving in two hours, we're doing it. So.

We go to do it and I'm feeling like, you I'm on two hours of sleep, feeling like high anxiety, but whatever, it's a lot better because I'm with someone, I'm with a friend. So we're hiking, we take the detour and parts of this detour trail are like, kind of scary. Like the North Rim Trail to me, or the North Rim Trail. It's like, if you were to one false move and drop 2000 feet.

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This trail was kind of the same in certain areas, but like maybe you would just drop like a thousand feet or 500 feet, you know, whatever you're gonna die either way. So it was just kind of like eating at me and my anxiety was getting higher and higher and I'm just like, god damn it, I didn't want to feel this anxious this early in the trail because I need to like save these reserves for the North Rim. Kind of the end of the hike for that day.

but whatever, we're out here. So we're going, we're moving slow because we have these heavy packs on and that's just kind of the nature of it. But we would like stop and take our packs off a little bit. So we get to the part of the detour where we're going to start going down toward the river. And it's kind of this intersection of two trails, one trail that I, it's the trail that,

this detour trail intersected with that we would now be joining is a trail that I know I'm not able to hike. Like most people could hike this trail. The worst thing about it is that it's steep and long. But what really prevents me is the heights and like the open, open, twisty. It's just very exposed. And so when I get afraid of heights, it's almost like I start to feel vertigo, feels like I'm drunk almost. And it's

That's like the feeling in my legs and I can't control it. It's so aggravating. It's like I try to put my mind in my feet and and it I just become a liability like when my anxiety reaches a certain height. It's like unsafe for me to be on the trail. And as someone I have had jobs where I lead groups on hikes, a handful of those jobs and I have just seen

how things can go sideways and really fuck up your day when you're in the wilderness. Things that are so avoidable, things that a lot of people don't think about. And when one person has an emergency on a trail, it's not just them. It's the people who have to help them. It's the people who can't help but are around, but feel like, I leave this person or not? And you know, I'm super sensitive. I'm super sensitive about how I fuck up the vibe of any room. And so...

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I never want to be in that position myself. And then it's like, I don't want to put other people in a position because I was negligent. So we get to this steep ass exposed trail that I know that I can't hike at this point in my life. Someday I will, I'm sure, but right now I just can't. And I'm like, fuck, I can not go down this. And so my friend and I, we just decided like, let's just put down our packs and like eat a bunch of food, have a bunch of water.

and just kind of ground down. I was like, I just need to like ground down and be on solid ground and not be like afraid of heights for a second. And there's other people around and I heard someone talking about a bridge, the bridge, and I was like, shit, this is not the bridge. This is a different bridge. And I've done a lot of research on the bridges that go across the Grand Canyon, just because last year it was one of the things I was really afraid of.

super afraid of heights. Again, I get vertigo, I get unstable on my feet, I feel like I'm gonna fall off the earth. It's getting better, it's gotten a lot better, but I still push it. I still love to push up against that edge and someday when I don't have that fear, I will be unstoppable. So I went up to this group of people and I was like, who has been on the bridge that crosses the river and who can tell me about it?

you know, everybody's got their opinions, but few people have been on it. So this one dude was like, well, I've been on it. And I was trying to ask just like fact based questions. But he just assumed that I was like, do you think I can do it? And he was like, you can do it. You'll be fine. And it's like, I know I will be fine. I know that I could in theory get across this. I know that I will not die. But the difference between it.

thinking you're gonna die and wanting to die are two different things. If I go on this bridge, this bridge that I think it is, this bridge that's way higher, it's smaller, yes, it's sturdy, yes, it's safe, but like I'm gonna fucking have a panic attack on the top of that bridge. So I'm just like asking him, is this that skinnier bridge? Is it really high off the water? Is it higher than the other one? Like, and he just kept saying, you're gonna be fine. It's like, shut up.

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That's not what I'm asking you. So I just went back and was like, this really sucks, but I can't do this trail. I'm not going to make it to the North Rim. I'm not going to be able to, it's going to be take a feat to get me on this trail down two miles to the river, steep two miles to the river. And then to have to go on that bridge and then know I have to do it tomorrow. Like it's my brain is just already mush. Like I can't do it.

And it's in those times where I used to feel so much self-loathing and it's like the reason why I do why I... It's not the reason, it's a reason I do this stuff alone. It's because I'm like also afraid I'm gonna disappoint people. Like if it was just me, I'd be like, whatever. You know, I've been dealing with my fear of heights my whole life. So I just keep pushing it. You know, sometimes you don't get to do what you wanted to do and whatever. Sometimes you surprise yourself and...

the end of day, I don't want to traumatize myself even more. I want to always want to be on the trail. want to overall, yes, there's going to be hard times and times that are like that type two fun where it's only fun in hindsight. But I don't, I don't want to put myself in a position that's going to like.

Yeah, I don't know, traumatize me, make me the experience. It's really important to me that I always want to hike. It's really important to me that I always want to move my body. It's really important to me that I always want to strive for more. But there's a point where I know from my history, I get burned out. I don't want to do it. And so I have this great motivation and I really foster it.

And so to put myself in a position where I would like annihilate that or make me be like, I don't want to fucking hike. Fuck. I, you know, spend 12 hours like being traumatized by it. So I'm just not interested in that. And I don't have really have an ego around it. You know, like, I just don't, I don't feel worse about myself because I hiked 20 miles instead of 25 on that day. You know, I don't feel bad about it.

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and ended up at the South Rim and not the North Rim. Anyway, so my friend who is just like such a good human and I've learned a lot from her and I was like, I'm so sorry. I feel like I'm disappointing you and, but I do think the trail we came from was beautiful and I, we could camp on the South Rim and wake up and do a different hike tomorrow. Like there's so much to see here.

This was a good training run. I'm not done. I'm never done. I'm always training for something. I'm always upping the ante. So it's not like this was all for nothing. And she was just like, I'm not disappointed. And she's like, are you kidding? I feel like I've never seen this side of you. And I feel like it's deepening our friendship. I'm like, that's so sweet. So we just like had a really nice time, like backtracking. So we went out like 10 or 11 miles and then

basically turned around and went back and damn those packs were heavy, so heavy. But it was just such a good training day and it was so hard going back up to the rim with that 30 pound pack on. And I mean, I think between the breaks and all of that, I think like the last two miles it took us, the last three miles it took us three hours.

It's like a mile an hour. No, I think it was less, two miles took us an hour, three hours. It was like less than a mile an hour. Dude, was brutal, brutal. So, so steep. It was for five miles with a 30 pound pack. Let me just paint this picture. This is the last five miles of it. 30 pound pack. That would be like you having a 30 pound pack on. Go on your treadmill, crank up the incline to 15, which is where most treadmills max out.

This incline goes anywhere from like 15 to 30 % with a 30 pound bag on. It's just like, how can I be mad at that? Like, how can I be disappointed in myself that I didn't go to the North Rim when I still did all that? So we did 20 miles, a little over 20 miles, and we did it in like 12 hours, 30 pound packs. We were probably like sitting on our ass with our packs off for like two hours of that.

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So still a relatively good pace and I was sore the next day for sure. But the second day after it was like I was barely sore at all and then the third day I was fine. it kicked my ass and it kicked my ass mentally too. But I'm excited to get back out there. And that's what I told my friend. I was like, well, my hope is, is this leaves you like hungry, like hungry to come back, hungry to get to the river. So.

We'll do that. We will do that this summer. I want to do it a couple times, so. And I have this really fun idea, you guys. I don't know if I told you about this last time, but I'm gonna be going to Joshua Tree soon, and I really wanted to go, but I have a ton of work to do. So I was like, how can I do a bunch of work while I'm there? And I thought, my god, I'm gonna record hypnotic tracks while I'm in Joshua Tree. So instead of recording them,

these hypnotic tracks I'm doing for the new podcast episodes. Instead of doing it in my closet, I'm gonna go and do it in Joshua Tree. And then I'm gonna take some video and then share that in the video of these hypnotic tracks, which I thought was such a fun idea. And depending on how it goes, hopefully it can be like a very productive but peaceful time. That's kind of how I'm envisioning it. And I'm planning that, like, what do I all need to make this happen? But if I could really dial that in, I just think,

How cool would it be if my hypnotic tracks were like recorded at like really potent places like Joshua Tree, Grand Canyon, and like anywhere else I go to on a road trip. So stay tuned for that. Yeah, I am setting up those podcast episodes. I'm editing them.

I can't wait to share them with you guys. And I'm actually gonna be editing more, kind of more intensely over the next like month. And that'll take me up to the solstice. And I am just really excited to launch those podcasts just a few days after the solstice. All right, I hope you all are doing wonderful. It's really starting to feel like summer where I'm at. I hope it's feeling bright and light.

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wherever you are. Okay, talk soon.