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Hey everyone, this month on Sear Sessions, we're exploring expanded awareness. What that means, these non-physical states, these unseen realms, these other lifetimes, and other strange, unexplainable experiences. We're exploring that. And I am putting it all in the folder of expanded awareness. And this is our deeper conversation about it, our Patreon membership episode.

Where I talk even deeper about the theme we're covering this month on the podcast. Okay, we're going deep. We're going into my first past life regression. We are 11 years into the future. So in 2015, I had my first past life regression. In 2019, I recorded a podcast episode, episode two of this podcast, talking about that.

session and how profound and impactful it was for me. And I shared clips of that session and I reflected on it from the point of view of my present moment at that time, which was 2019. And now in 2026, more than a decade after the original session, my God, what is time? I wanted to listen to it again.

I have had so much growth and expansion in the realms in which I work, which is hypnosis and other lifetimes and understanding your higher self and maybe even working with spirit guides. I can't necessarily say that I feel like I have all the answers right now, but I definitely have a lot more clarity and a lot more capacity in terms of wisdom.

Physical grit and strength. And I have way more of an expanded perspective just on these journeys, on what we can take from these journeys, what these journeys mean. So with that, I'm gonna curiously just like peek back into this pocket of time in 2019. This podcast episode I shared where I was peeking back into 2015 into a hypnosis session, my very first.

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Journey to another lifetime. So I'm gonna be listening to this right here with you, and I am a little afraid. what are we gonna find together? There's nothing my dark sense of humor can't get us through. So the way this feels to me, honestly, is that you and I are in a haunted house together. We are in a dark, cold, misty hallway. It's very long. You are crouched behind me. I am leading the way.

And between us is a pile of our forearms clutching hands and limbs, and we're creeping forward slowly. That's not the vibe I want, but that's how it feels right now. Okay. A reminder of the timeline here. So what you're listening, obviously me, 2026. This session, it's recording, you can hear it's like older, it's

Quieter. It's my first brush with transpersonal hypnosis. My first brush with past life regression, a journey to another lifetime. And I'm gonna insert just some commentary along the way. I'll let you know, you know, s anything that makes me feel a certain way, I will butt in and say something, but like.

Anything that resonates still, I'm definitely gonna talk about like things that feel different, things I have a different perspective on now than I did then. Or if maybe I I'm assuming I'll hear something and interpret it differently as well. I don't know. We're gonna do this together. I'm a little

Afraid and intimidated, but we are going to do it. Okay, how we're starting, I'm gonna plunk you into the intro of that episode where I pulled up this session that was four years old at the time, and I was teeing it up for the listeners, and then we're gonna dive into it. And you'll hear some commentary from 2019, you'll hear some of the session from 2015, and then you'll hear me present day talking about my perspective on it now. January 2015.

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Was my first session as a client of past life regression. And the reason I scheduled that appointment was because I wanted to release, understand, so I could release, learn more about what I thought at the time was my fear of commitment. Now, after going through the past life regression, I realized that it wasn't a fear of commitment, which is also the benefit of regression and hypnosis, is you can kind of logically think there's a problem on a conscious level.

But really it's something deeper. And so you can just go right to that route. So I was happy that's how I tackled this. And for me, I knew that I wanted to try past life regression. And so when this issue came up, it just seemed like a natural fit. I am someone who takes action. I make decisions quickly, and oftentimes I'm doing those things too fast. That's my problem, as opposed to not being able to take action, not being able to make a decision.

And so when I saw this part of my life where I was like, you know what? I just I want this thing, but I cannot take the action to get it. I'm just like paralyzed. I just shut down. I don't want to have conversations about it, but I want it. It was just like these two deep psychological things at war within me. And so the issue around it where it came up was getting married. And I never wanted to get married. I never saw myself as getting married.

You know, I'm sure there's a few reasons for that, but one of the reasons was I I love a lot of people who are married. I genuinely like a lot of people who are married. But when I would look at their union or look at their struggles day to day, it was like, shit, I do not want that. Like that is not something that I want in my life. I've got plenty of problems. Those are not my problems. And I don't want those problems. but then in walked Alex, my husband now. Just after getting to know him and spending time with him, it was like I just had

This really deep soul knowing, like I want to be with this person all the time, forever and ever. And I want everybody to look at our connection and know that we're connected, right? just so I can get that energy back from people. The energetics that I wanted from other people was to s them to see us how I saw us, which was like a partnership forever. Knowing this was something that I wanted, also knowing that I was unable to take the action to get there. So that was my signal for.

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This might be a good thing to try with past life regression. Okay, so this is a little uncomfortable, as you would imagine. Okay, so just to jog your memory, it's 2026 right now. This, what you're listening to, is 2019 Gina talking about a 2015 past life regression I had, my very first one. And it's pretty interesting here in 2026 looking back on it.

And listening to me talking. So the difference is now is that back then I was married. I was happy to be married. I was enjoying my life. I felt like, yes, this is what I like worked really hard for. I was feeling really good in my life. Consciously, that's how I was feeling. 2026, Gina, as I look back on that, 2019, Gina did consciously feel all of those things.

But when I look back on like where I was living and how I was living, pretty out of alignment with who I am now. But that period allowed me to like feel f emotionally secure, financially secure, home-wise, like I loved being at home. It was never like, what kind of mood is so-and-so gonna be in, or I'm afraid to live here alone.

Or whatever. It was like I had so much safety and security in my life, more than I ever had before. And it felt like I had gotten somewhere. Like, yes, this is what I worked so hard for. And what's so funny is that right now I look back on it and I'm like, what a constricted, depressing time in my life. But it w it didn't consciously feel that way, which is such a graceful thing.

to be able to see that and to know, like, wow, my life just keeps getting better and better and more aligned with who I am. Because obviously that's what happens when we like go inside and we figure out who we are. We're better to be like, actually, I want this in my life and not that. Actually, I'm gonna do this and not that. And we feel confidence in ourselves and in our intuition to sense these things for ourselves and move forward in that direction. So it feels good.

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On that level to look back, but otherwise it's kind of like, my gosh, a little bit cringy. One more thing I want to add in here. When I was thinking about listening to this episode and sharing this kind of reflection with you, I was thinking, that's right. I went into that past life regression being like, I want to get married, but something in me doesn't. So like I, you know, at the time it was very much what I described. Like I was just curious about it. Like,

When I think I want something, but I refuse to take action or all the action seems repulsive to me or like I can't do it, like that's a really a time when I go into hypnosis to be like, what is this incongruence? But 2026, Gina, looking back on that, I was like, that is just so I wouldn't even be in that session today. And here's why, and here's why I said that. Because today, if

If a relationship makes me feel like I need to seek counseling of any kind, therapy of any kind, that's a huge red flag in my mind. I have had a couple romantic connections since getting a divorce, and both of them made me feel like I needed therapy. Like holy moly. And yes, I did engage in some self-reflection. Yes, there were things I could clean up for sure.

But all in all, I can't I came out of both of those situations being like, if someone makes me feel like I need therapy, I should not be with them. And it's not necessarily them. It could just be my own like trauma response to something in their personality that reminds me of something over here that triggers me in this way. You know, it's not necessarily them. It could just be like, I cannot handle that. I don't want that kind of negative influence in my life that.

negative reciprocal influence that comes from like the high high of being in a situation like that for me. So right away when I was thinking about it, I was like, I wouldn't even be in that session because I wouldn't be being like getting seeking therapy or counsel for to fit into a relationship better. But it was nice to come back and listen to it and be like, no, that's what it was. It was like I really, really wanted it. But I felt like I just

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I couldn't get there. I didn't know how to get there. And so I called Eric Christopher and scheduled an appointment. And Eric Christopher does past life regression. He's located in St. Paul, Minnesota, and he does past life regression among other things. So at my session with him, the first thing we did was chatted and then set up an intention statement that we could say and focus on for the session. So the intention statement was.

Show me a life that will help me heal and release my fear of commitment. Now we're gonna get into the session recording. The session recording is very, very faint. First, I just want to say thank you. Shout out to 2015 Gina, who had no idea that she was gonna be doing hypnosis, doing past life regression one day as a job. She had no idea she was gonna have a podcast about it, but she followed her intuition and recorded.

this session and I actually think it was one of the first like healing sessions I ever recorded. So the audio's a little quiet, but I'm gonna try to turn it up. So just kinda listen listen intently and it's kind of a nice vintage feel to this eleven year old session clip.

Tune into that silently into yourself. Just kind of make that statement to your higher guidance with concentration and from your heart. Show me a in a few moments, show me a life. Higher guidance, show me a life that can help me heal and release my fear of commitment. And from there, Eric took me through the induction and then plopped me into my first.

experience with a past life scene, which was pretty powerful, but also as the first time client like everybody else, kind of feel like I'm making it up. But the cool part about it is all you do is just report on what you're thinking, knowing, seeing, feeling, smelling. You are simply just a reporter during these scenes. You're not necessarily trying to figure out why you're seeing what you're seeing at this point.

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So in the first scene, I was outdoor, it was daytime. When I looked down at my feet, I was wearing these brown kind of boots. And I was wearing a hat of some sort, and I was looking for someone, and that's all I knew. I just had this feeling of I'm looking for someone. I'm always looking for this person. And after a couple minutes, it settled in that I was actually looking for my husband.

And I had been looking for him for a long time. And I felt just like this exasperated, like, where is he? And I wasn't scared. I wasn't scared for me. I wasn't scared for him. I felt like I just needed to find him because I needed to tell him something. And I was always looking for him. As 2026 Gina listening to this, listening to this 2019 Gina narrate.

A 2015 session that I did. I don't even know if in 2019 I I really consciously got this, but it's so clear to me today, 11 years after this session, seven years after I broke it down for the podcast. This idea of wanting, waiting, always feeling like I'm on someone else's agenda, someone else's time, whether I'm waiting for them or

Waiting for them to get there, waiting for the thing to start, waiting for the thing to end. I just, I was always in that mental space. And I don't even know if I totally got that consciously. And that's how I felt. Like back then, I was so depressed and so anxious, more so than I ever thought I was, just because my baseline was so low.

But it was really this feeling when I think of the difference between my life now and my life then. One big thing is my I will not wait. I will not be on someone else's clock. Like I either want to be here, I'm enjoying the thing, or I'm out. And yes, I had there's a ton of shit in my life I have to do that I don't want to do. And it's the same for that. Pick a lane, Gina.

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If you want to do this, if you're here, don't be tortured by it. Find a reason to enjoy it. Find something to enjoy while you're here. I eventually understood that, which is how I created my life today. But that feeling, that scene was just so thick. I can still feel it today, of like just being like, where is this dude? I'm always looking for him. And growing up for me, it was like, I'm always waiting. I'm always.

Waiting for someone's emotions to pass, or I'm waiting for them to be ready, or I'm waiting for them to show up, or I'm it was just like I'm always fucking waiting. And now I'm like, I don't wait. I don't wait. My time is important too. You're late. I started doing something else. I forgot to log on. Or like you're late, I'm somewhere else. You don't show up.

I'm not sitting here waiting. You know, I'm my life is totally created from a space of what do I want to do? What can I do? Sure, I can't do everything I want to do today because of external things, because of internal things, but what can I do today to make life better? And like doing that inch by inch every single day, I can see whoa.

That was such a layer, like a cloud around my consciousness of like this idea of always waiting.

Waiting for someone else to do something, to be something, to get something. That mentality, I don't even think I knew I had it in 2019, but I think that's a part of tr learning, learning who you are, trusting that, and pushing your capacity, seeing yourself get stronger, more authentic, more this person who you want to be. I think that we start to, or at least I started to like value my time.

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Okay. And then we moved on to another memory, another scene in this other lifetime. And in that scene, the timeline, it was before the previous scene. So like we were a few years younger, but it was me and my husband, and we were in our home, which was this tiny little home, kind of like I don't know, like a little frontier home. I just think of I think of that show Little House on the Prairie. That's kind of the vibe of the scene that we were in.

And we were inside, we were in our home. It was like a wood floor, really rough, and just a really small home. So Eric prompted me to look at my husband and look in his eyes and see what his energy was like. Like what is he feeling? Kind of what's true for him right now. How is he in life? And when you do that in a past life scene, this is a time when you can pick up sometimes on their energy and you can see like

this is someone else in my life. But I didn't know this person at the time. So I was just like, I don't he he's not familiar, his energy's not familiar. He had these big blue eyes. And his other energy was like he's focused, he's tired, like tired from hard work. He works so hard and he works a lot and he works the land that we live on.

and then when I tuned into my own energy toward him in that scene, I just felt really disconnected. And it was the sense of disconnection that had come from knowing that at one time we were really connected. So it was it was also kind of like a sadness in that disconnection as well. Ooh, I can still feel that that disconnection and like the the s the grief in it. Like I wanted to say sadness, disappointment.

But really just the grief in it. And it was so layered. And I get into that grief, I'm pretty sure I explain it a little bit better, like later on in this session. But I can just feel it there. And it felt so heavy. And it was disappointment like in him, and disappointment in me. And when I think of that, it was just such a great checkpoint for me as someone who is in this life.

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Loves to overexplain because I hate being misunderstood and I usually am misunderstood. So I love to overexplain. I think it's really important. I never want someone to not know how I feel about them. not necessarily in the negative. I don't need to tell everybody that, but like if I really care about someone, it's really important that I tell them that. I just I always want to be showing up.

I don't know, just really true and authentic. And this lifetime really illustrated to me like maybe this is one reason why. And to me, as I stand here now, it's less about finding the reason why and more about consciously understanding that within me. So I can be like, that's a thing. and guess what?

That's a fear I have. Guess what? I overexplain. That's a problem in some areas, but actually in this area, it's not. I can easily rectify that deep, deep fear of being misunderstood, especially mostly with the people that I care about. I'm less interested in obviously like people I don't know, people that don't affect me personally in my everyday life. I have a nice in real life.

life. So the online stuff doesn't really bother me, but like it's really important that people know that to me. I don't know why. I just have this knowing of like how short life can be and how quickly things can change. And I just never want that feeling of this person doesn't know how I feel about them. And I don't know. But in this case, if I would have had that in that lifetime, in that moment I would have just said it.

I would have just been like, hey, I'm feeling so heavy and gross right now. But I just want you to know, like, I have love for you. I love our connection. I want to get back there. You know, that's who I am today. And I see that in contrast to this other lifetime. So sometimes we can experience another lifetime or a scene or a memory from another lifetime. And it's absolutely not who we are today. And that contrast can illuminate even more who we are.

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on the inside it can expand our awareness our knowing of ourself in contrast to that other version that we're experiencing and then that way we can just be more aware of it more understanding of it it's it's like understanding kind of like those fine tuning of like who you are and how to use that energy to your advantage then we move to the next scene move to a mealtime scene

Let yourself move to the point of the meal where you're taking it in, where you're consuming the meal, noticing the smell, the taste of the food. Become aware of any dishes or utensils you may be using. To help me really get into this scene, Eric asks me all kinds of questions like who made the food, who's here with you, kind of what's around you, what's the atmosphere like?

And essentially what came out of this scene was this just fine dinner scene, but within it, I could feel that beginning of the unraveling. So this was before either of the two previous scenes or memories that we just examined. And it was just my husband and I. And we were just sitting very quietly eating together. So it was interesting experiencing it.

You know, the first scene that we experienced, and then the second, and now this scene really just seeing kind of in reverse the unraveling of the connection between the two of us. But because I experienced it from kind of farther or closer to the end of the life and then coming, you know, reverse through the years, I could see how much.

I felt but swept under the rug, or the things that I, instead of having a conversation about, I just simply doubted. And now looking at it from the vantage point of who I am now, someone who has led, you know, in the last 11 years since this session, I've become trained in leading these sessions. I've led thousands of people on these journeys. So as I listened to it, if I was the one facilitating this session, the thing that I would be thinking about is like.

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What a weird little scene. Like it's just another kind of progression of what we've already been seeing. But you'll see at the end, we come back to this scene. The scene that seems like it doesn't mean anything. We come back to it. And it's a really key part of like the healing of it all, which to me it's it's divine. Like, how would my mind know that? You know, is it divine?

Is it happening all at once and there's a part of me that's totally aware of everything? I don't know, probably both, honestly. After that scene, then we went on to the next scene, and that scene is where I met my husband.

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Three, two, and now one. In this memory scene, however you want to say it, the first thing I became aware of was how joyful I felt. Totally present, totally focused on the people in front of me and who I was with. And we were laughing and talking and just having a great time. And it was me and a few friends.

And the energy around us was kind of like hustle bustle a little bit. And the vibe of it all, the scene of it was very again, it was like very frontierish. Like if you've ever been to Tombstone, Arizona, or ever watched that movie, Tombstone, it was like that. It was like a dirt road, storefronts on either side. And I can even hear and feel the planks of the wood.

Like the wood sidewalks in front of the storefronts. Even though it was busy, it was a small area, right? Like probably right now, I don't know, like one city block long. But it was a lot and it was like hustling and bustling part of the area. Now 2019 Gina is gonna describe the rest of this scene. And I was just so carefree, and we were laughing and joking around, and I

It was like I had a bag full of things, like we were running errands, and I turned around and I slammed into someone and all of these things in the bag went everywhere. I'm sure you've had a time like this, but sometimes something happens and you're with a friend or a few friends, and it is so funny and so fun that even just talking about it in the future is almost just as fun and funny. Like that's the type

Of energy we were in, that's the type of vibe we were in. And then I turn around and everything changes. And not a change for like the bad or the good. It just totally changes. Like my attention goes from being totally absorbed over there to totally absorbed over there. Here's how I described it in that session. What's happening here? Standing on a street, a lot of people around are really happy.

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We're so happy that

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Just let yourself feel that. Feel the scene. Feel the happiness.

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Even to this day, like you know, over four years later, when I hear that, like I get teared up because I just it was so strong in like these feelings of joy and happiness and like lightness and just carefree. And man, it's like words words are just such a letdown when I'm trying to explain like how happy I was. It still gets me in twenty twenty six, like

That memory is so alive. It's so alive. And if I ever want to feel like total joy, it's one of the many things at this point in my life, thankfully, that I can remember. And it just brings up like that joy that makes you like this, you know? And I'm so thankful for it. Who I slammed into ended up being my husband in that life.

So this explosion of joy after feeling, after running into him, after feeling so joyful with my friends, that's what I was comparing everything to in every other memory from basically that point to the rest of my life. And because I came into this past life journey, experiencing it from, you know, the older years coming down to the younger years, it was an interesting perspective to see like

this, like this is why. Like, this is why I felt so much grief. It was like, here's the flip side of that grief. Like, here's what you were grieving. This is the heights that you were coming from, which is why this feels so low, even though it doesn't look bad from an outsider's point of view. Okay, so 2019 Gina is gonna say a little bit more about this scene.

And so he was the person that I slammed into. And it was almost like my happiness was so infectious to him. Because when I slammed into him and stuff went everywhere, he started laughing and was just like almost like swept in into like the wave of our fun. And he was picking things up and helping us. And in my mind I was just thinking, like, wow, he is so handsome and

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He's helping me and why would he even be paying attention to me? He even seems to like me. And it was almost like this disbelief within this just like pure joyful funny moment. Do you feel very connected to him here on the street? Yeah. A deep connection. Yeah, but I I think we are some map. Okay. So being in this scene and feeling this connection to him.

It was almost like I went from being in the scene with my friends, laughing, being carefree, slamming into him, turning around. And then it was like him and I were just like in our own world. Who is this handsome man? Why have I never seen him before? I just felt so connected and just magnetically drawn to his orbit. And it's just him and I now laughing and picking these things up. And now let yourself move.

Forward a little bit in time. When I play the tone, you move forward in time to the next scene. Three, two, and one.

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In this scene, I'm at home in our home together, and it was soon after we got married. And so knowing that, Eric then asked me just to reflect on the wedding, like the day we got married, and how I was feeling on that day. Now that might seem kind of weird, like we're in a memory, examining a memory, but we do it all the time in session, and it totally works because here's the thing.

You are sitting here listening to this, and you have a whole life going on around you and within you. So you could be saying, Hey, I'm sitting here listening to a podcast and doing dishes or doing laundry or maybe you're walking or doing something else. But you can also be doing that thing, be listening to this episode, and also have complete knowing of what you did yesterday, what you had for breakfast, what you

What your wedding day was like if you got married. Like you can easily effortlessly know these things and be examining memories. And the same is true no matter what lifetime you're in. So the clip you're gonna hear next is when Eric was asking me questions about my wedding day, how I felt on my wedding day. And of course, it was a whole thing. Excited, nervous. You were nervous? Yeah, I just I don't know why he'd want

Part of you a little suspicious, or you just don't understand why he'd want to marry you? No, I I feel like he's better than me. Okay. In this original episode, episode two of my podcast that was released in 2019, the way I dove into this was well, a few different ways, but the biggest thing was like, I see this theme in my life. This theme was a theme.

that was very much with me when I first got into relationship with my ex-husband, my husband at the time in 2019. And it was just this feeling of like, why are you with me? You seem like a little bit out of my league. And at the time I knew like that's not a point of view one should have. But I didn't really understand what was underneath it. At that time in 2019

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And in 2015, I was pretty well aware that I had, you know, low self-worth. And it's like, what does that even mean? You know what I mean? To me, that's what we label a bunch of symptoms. But there's a million things that can cause that, you know? I know now on my journey in 2026 is that back then I couldn't see what was good about me. Like

I knew that humans are good and people are good. You know, there's also people who are not good, but like there's goodness in most. And I knew that was true for me. I could hear what people would reflect back to me, but I didn't value those things. If if I could say, yeah, that's a good thing about me, it's not something I valued. I totally discounted every good thing about me as like that doesn't really count because.

And that's what it is. And that's also, I guess, why I do all the higher self-work that I do. Like I love past lives. Obviously, that's my kind of my shtick. But I've brought in in the last couple of years a lot of higher self-work into my sessions, even into this podcast. And that's because if you don't know you, and if you don't see that.

goodness in you and that unique part of you that you need to share with people, even if it is hard, it does light you up. Even if you don't want to think about it, it keeps coming back in your head. Those little parts of you that make you unique, if we don't see those in a divine light, we will see those as things that separate us from the love and belonging that we are hardwired to adjust ourselves for.

And it's through that space of our higher self, at least for me and every person that I have taken on a journey personally to their higher self, that's when we really can see like the specialness, the divinity, that unique human spark, your soul self, however you say it. The part of you that has has lived life after life, life in between lives, something people will ask a lot is like, I want to know who I am. Like, who have I been life after life?

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You get that information at your higher self. Your higher self holds all of that information. And in that, you will start to see how special you are. And because you're getting it from a whole divine source, you are going to be genuinely filled up by it. So you can then turn around and see that goodness in everyone else. Even the shitty people, even the people who you can't stand.

When you are met with them in front of you, you're gonna be like, I can see the goodness in you. And that doesn't mean you're gonna put up with their shit. It doesn't mean you have to keep putting up with their shit. All it means is that you can see the goodness. And when we can see the goodness in someone and they're acting like a damn fool, we can easily be like, and I got an idea of what kind of shadows that could get them to act like that. I don't know what it is. I don't want to think about it. I don't even want to be around this person.

But I'm not all kerfluffled about it. You know, I'm not pissed off because they're disrespecting me, which is where I would always go. And that feeling not good enough led to all kinds of things. Obviously, that's not a good way to feel. I don't deserve who I'm with. That's like obviously I was grasping. Obviously, I was having a lot of anxiety, but it's because I couldn't see me. So know thyself. It includes your eternal self and it includes your subconscious mind.

And then in this session, Eric went on to ask even more questions about my wedding that day, how I was feeling. Remember, in this scene, I'm not actually at the wedding. I'm like at home after we're married and I'm reflecting on our wedding. And he asked me, Does life at this stage in this scene, does married life feel good to you? And and the only thing that kept coming up was this comparison to like

Who we both were and the experience we had when we very first met. And so the thought I had was, it's not as good as we felt in the street. And then Eric asked, Well, what's different? And I said, I'm alone and the life or feelings that I have now aren't as rich. And I just felt like my life is just like so boring. Almost like

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The scene who we used to be was like full color, and now I'm just like flat, living in black and white. Then we moved on to another memory, another scene to examine. In this scene, I was indoors and appeared to be at some sort of funeral or wake. Eric kept asking me questions, and pretty soon I realized, like, I'm at my husband's wake. Okay. And then with that, Eric asked me, What do you know about how he died? And

The only thing I really got was this picture. And it was my husband in that life. He was like in a field somewhere laying next to a piece of machinery or something. And I think he had like a lot of blood like on his midsection. So I don't I don't really know anything about farming back then. I don't know anything about it, but it was like he had had some sort of accident with a piece of machinery. And

That was it. I didn't feel any sort of like great emotion about it. It was just like flat, numb, just like, I I know I could be feeling more, but I'm not. And with those numb feelings, Eric kept kind of digging around. And here's how I described it in 2019 after listening to the session again. He was always gone. And I just had this feeling like I was always waiting for him or looking for him.

And he just had a lot going on and he was always really hard at work and we had a lot of land to work. I'm not entirely sure what that means. But he was always just kind of MIA. And not like in a bad way, but just like he was taking care of business. And I felt torn because when he was gone a lot, I missed him. But I also hated being alone so much that I started to resent him. And I knew

I felt so torn because I knew the work needed to be done, but I felt resentful of him when he was back. Even though I was resentful because I was home alone all the time and I just wanted to be around him. And I wanted our connection to get back to what it used to be. After going through that in our married life together, the last few years that we were married and both living, we were so distant from each other. It was just really hard.

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To get back. So what really lived there was a lot of disconnection and resentment. Okay, this feeling of resentment. All right, let me break it down. Where am I at with it today? Because it was such a big one for me. In 2015, when I did this session, I was working for myself. I was not married, but living with the person who I ended up marrying.

He I worked for myself. So most of the time, unless I was doing like direct client work, I was at home. So I was at home a lot, working from home a lot. He was out of the house. And I started to notice like I love my work. I love my life. I like that I get so much alone time at home. And still these feelings of resentment would just kind of like bubble up inside of me. And it was hard to

feel those feelings and not get swept up in it. You know, I would be very cognizant of like, I'm not gonna project this onto him, like this is me. And in 2019, when I was reflecting on this session that had taken place, you know, years earlier, I was like, dang, I have really moved through that. It's not something that I felt at all in 2019. What's so cool about hypnosis is that we go to the root. We're not just looking at a symptom of like,

you're eating too much, or you don't ever work out, or your excuses are always pulling you off track. We're taking my clients are people who work hard, they're aware, they're sensitive, they want to evolve, they want to grow. And so with that, they've tried things, different actions, different healing modalities, different perspectives. They know that when we go to the root, like, why am I really behaving in these ways?

And when we can go deep into our subconscious mind and figure out what is really going on here, we can get a new perspective that helps us loosen the grip of those emotions that kind of take over us that we don't really want to partake in anymore. We want to understand what is driving this. So we don't have to even feel it anymore. We don't have to manage it anymore. Let's get to the root. So it's just like not even a thing anymore.

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And that was really cool in 2019, recapping this 2015 session to be able to see that. Here's how I put it in 2019. I did not go into this past life regression looking to heal that part of our relationship. And that part of our relationship was healed. And that's what's so cool about hypnosis in general, is a lot of times we go in for one thing and we kind of heal a few things and

We'll heal things where it's like, that was an issue, but it wasn't like a big enough issue where I felt like I needed to go get help for it. So back to that scene, right? I'm at the wake or the funeral of my husband. He had died suddenly. And what do I feel? I'm feeling incredibly numb. I don't feel much of anything. I don't feel a lot of sadness that he's gone. The overall thing is it almost feels like

like I'm drifting in a cloud. Like I have no feelings about this. And so Eric and I move forward to another scene. And so this scene I come to, I'm indoors, I'm at home, in a bigger house, and I'm all alone. And it's been a long time since my husband passed away. And I can see myself sitting in this, like kind of old

Wood, maybe a rocking chair, but old wood chair. I can see I have gray hair, like long gray hair, it's swept back like in a low ponytail, and I'm just like staring, kinda like staring at the floor. It's daytime and the silence is just it's so loud. I remember when I was in this session in twenty fifteen and I was feeling myself in that chair. I could

Hear that silence was so loud. It was like buzzing in my ear. And the feeling inside of me was just this heavy, gross feeling. It was so intense. It felt full body and mind. And it felt like the amplification of this little feeling that had resided in the back of my brain for as long as I can remember. I remember being a child and hating silence. I remember being an adult.

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And hating silence. And it wasn't even conscious until that session. But it was like, this is the feeling. And what I would feel in my life as Gina as a kid or as an adult before this session was just this gross heaviness. And I don't know if it was like the thoughts in my head probably contributed to it at times.

But I had a hard time being in silence. Like if I would travel with a friend, they'd be like, my God, you like always need the TV or the radio on. And I just remember thinking that they were weird for not wanting that stuff on. I'm like, you just want to sit here in silence? Okay. but now it's like, yeah, and everything I've learned about the nervous system, like silence.

Nourishes our nervous system. It helps us kind of reset and regulate. This session was like a new perspective on this heavy feeling that I would feel in silence. And knowing that it was such a thing actually in my life, having it, having that experience in the hypnosis session helped me to see, like, wait, I feel this in my regular life. It's kind of like when you have a picture with a lot of color in it, and then you want to put it in a frame and you're trying to choose the mat.

Like the matte around it, like what color. And even though the matte color doesn't affect the picture, how you see kind of like what pops out, what catches your eye first in that picture is usually the same color as the matte. It's a good analogy for when we go into the experience of another lifetime.

And we have kind of a more intense, exaggerated feeling than we do in this lifetime, but it can still highlight like, yeah, this isn't a huge problem for you, but it is causing some friction. And having that highlighted, that's the only way you can change it. If you're not fully consciously aware of it, you're not gonna change it. So to have that intense scene in another lifetime.

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made it so easy for me to automatically see and know how it shows up in my life today. And with that conscious awareness and with that full vision of like, shit, it's not just every once in a while. It's like all the time and it's been going on forever. Now with that knowledge, I can easily change it. Here's how I put it in 2019. Again, you can go into hypnosis for one thing and you go through hypnosis or regression and you come out with like

All these other things that have been healed that you didn't even think needed healing or were worth your time looking into, and they just become unraveled just like so easily. It's really cool. So here I am in this past life scene, an older woman just sitting in this rocking chair thinking. And let yourself reflect back on what life has been like for you since your husband.

I just feel numb. It's been a long time, but nothing nothing's really happened. So in this scene, looking back on my life, almost like I had this dense layer of numbness around me. I never got close to anyone else. Really at the heart of it was this like protection against hurt and against having a connection with someone and losing that connection. In twenty twenty six, as I said here, I don't necessarily believe that like

Earth as a school, and we're here to learn lessons. If you believe that, then I believe that's true for you. That's not true for me. I do know that I'm here with a purpose. I know who I'm trying to be. I know, I believe I know why I came here, what I'm doing. And with that, I am continuously running into parts of me, perspectives within me, beliefs within me.

That are out of alignment with that. Meaning, if I'm not aware of these perspectives, these beliefs, they keep me from taking action to create the life that I want to create. And in listening to this, my 2019 recap of a 2015 session, and I've seen the different ways that I've evolved through this idea. And this session in 2015 was the first time I was ever consciously made aware of this sort of thing.

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So being consciously aware that, this is a thing that can happen, I started to see it in my everyday life. And when I would see it in my life, I would be like, that's kind of like that thing I was dealing with in that other lifetime or in that session. And it was just this little clock, this little check where I would be like, I see that. Where before, had I not had that experience, it wouldn't have hit my radar like it did.

So it's just a way to like accentuate a life experience. And in this case, it's one that I wanted to avoid. Most recently, it's taken on the shape of in that life, it was like I don't want to get close to anyone because I almost like felt like I couldn't. Honestly, when I look back on it, it's like I think that nervous system in that body was just like and just couldn't calm down, couldn't soften, couldn't open. But when I see that.

It's a feeling that I have in this life sometimes. And the most recent iteration of it that I've noticed is I will often avoid something that's good just in case it leaves. And then I have to deal with the high of knowing, I had this, it was good, and then the low of being like, it's not here anymore. And now I have to deal with the desire of wanting it and the knowing of what it was like to have it. And

knowing what it's like to have it when you're in the the grief of not having it somehow seems more painful. And that could be from having a good meal to staying in a relationship that feels really good. This kind of comes up in really weird ways for me, but it's almost like this demented twist on delaying gratification. And instead it's like avoiding gratification so I don't have to like live through the fall of it.

And that's at the root of it. I could give you 400 examples that would probably seem little and make me feel dumb. But I think when we have these experiences, it just expands our awareness to what's possible, expands our awareness to what makes a life good and what makes a life gross. And with that knowing within us, we can make better decisions in this life, the one that matters.

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So next up on this journey, Eric was asking me questions in this space. Like, do you feel numb? Are you like in shock? Are you crushed by grief? Are you sad that he died? And this was my response. I don't really feel sad about him dying. I feel sad that our relationship has kind of crumbled before. It's like I'm sad that I'm not sad. Okay. In the nuance here is that I was grieving this relationship.

way before this man died. Somehow, some way, that grief had already piled up so much that I just felt like when he died, it was just like okay. I'm already in it, you know? Yeah, to the point that he died and it didn't feel that traumatic. So we moved on to the next scene and it was kind of like either the final hours or

days before my death. And I was at home in bed. And I just remember feeling so, so tired. I'm aware that these are my last few moments. I'm aware that I'm dying. I can only feel one thing. I'm in that bed.

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Into that nervousness. And what do you feel most nervous about? As I laid in that bed, the thing that I was most nervous about, it wasn't about the transition, wasn't about dying. I was so nervous to see my husband. I knew that it was like I just felt like I had to face some sort of music on the other side. I knew it was in relation to our connection.

And like how I was essentially the one who made it crumble. And now I know that in a partnership there's two people, but my point of view in this past life was that he was always kind of an open book and very sweet natured and very honest and true and authentic. And so all of the work that he had done for us was really.

For us, for our relationship. That's how he saw it. And so when I would be crabby or resentful or angry, he just like really did not understand it. And like most people would in that situation, when someone's prickly, you kind of back off. And he, I'm not sure what it was from his point of view, but from my point of view, there was a lot of things on my side of the street that I could have cleaned up.

That would have preserved or promoted more connection. Me in 2019 talking about this 2015 session, I didn't see what I now see. And it's kind of funny this blind thought of like this person is doing so much for me. I should just shut up and not feel resentful. But I can see threads now in that relationship, in that other lifetime. And I can see it in the marriage that I was in in 2019 when I was talking about it.

Where I my whole life, and you could even say it's like cultural, I think from the little bit of research I've started doing, but this idea of like when someone works for you or does things for you, that's how they show that they love you. So some people would think that's shallow, right? Like if you buy me dinner and I think that's love, then it seems like money is love to me. And no, it's more about your

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doing something for me. You're you're spending resources on me that you worked hard for. You're working for me. You're working so we have resources together. Like this is a love language of the people who immigrated to America, at least as far as I know, late 19th century ger from Germany. And some people say it's transactional, it's shallow, but it's a little bit more nuanced than that.

And I can see that in my description of this man in another lifetime. And the description I was talking from the year 2019. And in this year, I can see I used to always take acts of service and work and the idea of I'm working so the family can have resources. That's why I'm not with you. That's why you don't feel loved. I can see now that, like, yes, of course.

Course, that breeds resentment in me because I can see that they're doing these things. These things benefit us, they benefit the life that we're building, but I'm not feeling the love. And what I know today is that I can see that. I can see that's where that resentment comes from, or some of it anyway, is that you don't feel the love, even though you feel like you should, because this person's doing all of this stuff.

for your life. Of course I feel a lack there because that's not how I want love. I want love to feel like we're on an adventure together. We're having fun together, we're laughing together, we're lifting the vibe. It's not just me doing all the work or me puppeteering, you know, the vibe and every single adventure. It was like I was constantly comparing us to this very electric, alive feeling.

within both of us. And in 2019, when I was recapping this 2015 session, I was coming at it from a space of like, I need a new perspective so I can feel it. But now in 2026, knowing everything that I've dove into, I've gone through a divorce, had a couple ongoing romantic connections since then, I have learned so much about who I am, how I operate in relationship.

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What works for me and and I mean really works for me. Not just like what gives me fired up or what is something I can settle into, but just like what really, really works for me. And if I'm honest about that, I'm so appreciative for all the work, for example, this man did in this other lifetime. I'm so appreciative for the work that my previous husband did. And today, as I show up here, I'm like,

Yeah, bro, I was doing just as much, if not more, work, benefiting our life in all kinds of ways. So today I can see I don't need to be resentful necessarily. It's just this mismatch of like the kind of love I want to experience and the kind of work I want to do in a relationship. And right there is one of the big differences between who I am today.

In 2026, and who I was in 2019 and in 2015. In 2019 and 2015, I was someone who showed up to relationships and been like, this is difficult. I'm uncomfortable. I keep saying I want this thing, but it never happens. And now I'm feeling negative emotions about it. And I need to let go of these negative emotions so I can be in these relationships. And that is how I went about healing, healing.

And that's not how I do it anymore. It's not. This is who I am. This is what I want. This is what I need and cannot do without. And I am not going to therapize myself in order to deal with someone's lack of ability to be in relationship appropriately with me. I am a 45-year-old woman. Why am I dragging dudes with me? Why am I dragging friendships?

That don't want to come with, you know? I have to be brutally honest about what I want and what really works for me. And it's unfortunate when we think something's gonna work, we think it's what we want, and it doesn't work out. Okay, but instead of just shutting down like I did in that other lifetime, instead, in this lifetime, all I do is look at that stuff and attack. How can I learn more? How can I use this energy to my advantage?

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What do I need to focus on instead? But there's a time and a place for everything, right? Like that, what I just said maybe would be problematic for me 10 years ago. But I have done so much work examining who I am, my subconscious mind, my shadows, connecting to my true self, my higher self, that I've kind of come to a position where it's like, I like who I am, I know who I am, and I'm not gonna change that for anyone, mostly because I can't. I don't think I can.

some of the stuff I've been trying to change for a while. So I just have to accept it. But also because I know that the perfect match, whether it's through for a work project, through a friendship, getting a lover, who I am will be something that they're like, yeah, that's what I want. Not, yeah, I'm looking for some milk toast person who will put up with anything because they can't see their value.

And so they don't see what they bring. And so they think they're a burden on everyone, which deep inside them, they know it's not true. So they feel resentful. Like that's who I used to be. And now it's like, here's the truth. I'm not for everybody. And I don't even like most people. But here's what it is. Here's what I want. And I know I just need a good handful of people, and I've got a lot of them around me right now. And it's that simple. That's the biggest shift, maybe, between

Me today and me in 2019 and me in 2015 as I was recording this. It's this expansive awareness of the magic that I have inside of me and the benefits I bring to those who are around me, whether it's a romantic connection or work or friendship, whatever. That is true. And so if something doesn't feel good, it's not because I'm not doing it good enough. At this point in my life on my journey,

I'm the one to overexplain, overdo, overcompensate. If anyone needs to pull back, it's me. Now, most people need to start stepping in the direction of like being kind, being compassionate, being aware of other people. But a lot of us sensitive, empathic people are doing it too much. We need to pull back. We need to see we could be everything for everyone, but we don't need to be. There's actually someone in here who's got.

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Better ideas. And the more we fulfill these gifts and share these gifts with other people and share love and compassion with other people, the better life is in general. So I am not someone who looks at a relationship and goes, I'm gonna go to therapy and see if I can be better in this relationship. No, no, I'm good. there's no one I know personally. There's no one I know who has been more through more healing modalities.

Or various therapies, or spends more time in reflection and processing their life than me. I'm not saying they don't exist. I don't know them. So no, I am especially not going to be therapizing myself over a man or a romantic relationship again. Okay, so then Eric moved me through the death scene. And it's actually the most sensation, like physical sensation I've ever had when moving.

the soul out of the body, like moving through that space when we go from the death scene to kind of like reflecting on that life from the vantage point of the soul. Now for me, if I go through it, it's a very subtle feeling. It's very easy. It happens in a snap. And it's just this like,

Just feels like an exhale. Honestly, it's like that light, but it's a relief. You know what I mean? Like a light relief. But that one, it was so much feeling of like moving out of my body. It was kind of wild. And then we came back and we reflected on that life. And I was still carrying a lot of heaviness and a lot of the burden of fault. I mean, I was putting the whole burden of the dissolution of that union. I was putting it.

on myself. And there's two people in every relationship. And you know, there's all kinds of dynamics that go on, but he was not perfect. I was not perfect. But I was putting all the blame on me. And when I was listening to this, I was just like, my God, shut up. This is not your fault. I mean, I had to go through that, right? To like be where I am right now. But maybe you need to hear that right now, where it's like not everything is your fault.

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Even if you see a way you could fix it, that doesn't necessarily mean that's your job. And that doesn't even necessarily mean that would be the best for everyone involved. That is something I have really learned in the last 10 years for sure. Once that lifetime was over, my conscious awareness was outside of that body reflecting on that life. Eric had asked me, What's the thing that stands out most about that life when you look back on it? I think I avoid it a lot. What did you avoid?

I just felt numb. I think I did that because we were so happy. It's disappointing how far it crumbled. I feel like I almost it's hard to look at the good times. Put the crumbling under a microscope from the vantage point of the soul. What was it that made it crumble? No not putting in effort. Like when I was alone sometimes I'd feel resentful.

And that would spill over to when I was with my husband. I think that helped to separate us emotionally. But it's like I couldn't stop. Okay, wiser Gina, here's what I see. Yes, avoidance. Yes, resentment. Yes, allowing that resentment, getting caught up in that current, making it someone else's problem. But what was really avoided

Not even avoided, because avoided implies that I was consciously aware of it, was getting to know yourself. This was a problem in 2019. I mean, I was on a journey for it for sure, but in 2021, it really ramped up and just kept going. And now I start to see that so many of our problems come from this idea of like not knowing who you are.

Not understanding who you are, what you truly want, your true desires, not questioning what you do desire and why you want it, not having that self-awareness will lead us to think that those needs are things that other people need to fulfill. And then when they don't fulfill it, which of course they won't, they're not a magician, they're not a mind reader, they're trying to deal with their own stuff. When they don't fulfill it, then I would feel resentful.

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But I didn't communicate it because I didn't even know it and I don't even know what I'm resentful of. So now when I look back on this, of course, like I not only do past life work, but now I do higher self-work. And it makes so much sense to me that back then I wasn't doing higher self-work. I mean, I would engage with my higher self, I would ask my higher self questions every once in a while, but I wasn't on this journey of unrelenting being like, who am I and what do I need?

Because anytime I don't feel good, anytime someone's frustrating me, anytime a situation is pissing me off, a lot of times I got there as a free will yielding 45-year-old woman with no husband, no kids. And I say that to imply the freedom I have. If I myself in this life that I have intentionally created, and in some ways I have held the vision for and worked toward,

For 25 years. If I'm in a situation that doesn't feel right for me, I need to understand why. And then I need to understand why I am in this if it's not right for me. And that idea of like what is right for me. I don't know. I I I've never felt more clear than I am today, but who knows? In 10 years, I could look back on something like this and be like, my God, you were so misguided. But it's not about.

Crucifying that person. It's about being like, my gosh, you didn't know and you still learned. And using that as a way for me to still have confidence in myself, still have trust in myself. I see it all the time in relationships, in arguments, relationships that I'm in, relationships that I witness, you know, across the room or whatever.

If we all got very clear on what it is that we need to feel love, to feel acceptance, to feel whatever it is we're trying to feel in this relationship, if we got honest and clear about that and communicated it, we could eliminate a lot of bumps in the road. As I sit here in 2026, my ex-husband is my closest friend. We are still like family. We share three dogs together. And I know it's because.

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Through the journey of me finding myself and understanding myself, I was sharing it with him. I was doing it in a compassionate way. I never made him the bad guy. I'm very much someone who's like, I'll take on the fault, which is I do that too much. But I really do believe that it's our ability to know ourselves and know what we want, and know and believe that other people have those same unique interests.

unique to them, not necessarily same to me, but unique to them. And that our job here is to honor that. Honor it by understanding ours and acting in alignment with it, whatever it is the life we came here to create, our true self, our higher self. And when we do that and we do it in a way that's whole and nourishing and loving and from the divine, I believe, then

We have overflow and we can see that in other people. And I know a lot of people are still in that projection and blame game and blame everyone else but themselves. But to me, when I look back on where I was in relationship and what I thought and where I am now as a divorced person who's still very close to my former spouse, I believe that that ability to know who you are, have honest conversations, and be loving and non-judgmental.

As a result to the people around us, as they kind of work out what are their unique interests, what kind of life do they truly want to build? We need that compassion for ourselves and for other people if we're really gonna grow and evolve. And even if a relationship ends or changes, I think that when we're in touch with who we truly are, the gifts we have, what we bring to a relationship truly, the magic we bring to a relationship, and what we want in a relationship, it's much easier.

Easier to navigate these conversations in a way that's not adversarial or creates fights or creates more resentment with blame and assumptions and misunderstandings. One of the things that Eric asked me in this session when we were reflecting on that past life, on those past life scenes from the vantage point of the soul, he had asked me, when you look back on that life, like what was missing in that life? And what I said was laughter.

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And it was so profound in that moment that I didn't save it on here because it was so quiet. It was like I would I can hear that I'm sobbing, crying. And I was just like, laughter, laughter was the thing that was missing. And honestly, when I think about it, like it just that life felt so heavy. And the fact that laughter alone would have made that life feel the difference between heaven and hell, like

It's so great and so profound in me that like I'm obviously still affected by it. And we all want to be in that state, right? Like we all wanna be in a lighthearted state. Like life feels better when we're laughing. And it feels so frivolous and silly, like it's such a little thing, it doesn't matter.

But it's the context of the whole thing. It's the fabric of that whole moment. And every moment makes up your life. And I just think of how me realizing that in that moment, it ignited something that I already knew, like that I like to be in that space. And it became very conscious. And it became very clear to me how important that state of being for me. I don't know, for everyone else, maybe, but

For me is so important when I'm in relationship with people. And that if I don't put myself in that place, and if I can't get to that place when I'm in relationship with someone, it doesn't matter how much I like them. It doesn't matter how good it could be. It ain't. It's not. This is not for me. Of course, life is difficult. We go through difficult times. We have fractures and relationships and we build upon those to make them stronger.

But overall, for me personally, I know that laughter is such a big part of enjoying a relationship and enjoying life on this earth. And so because I was in such a heavy, stuck spot, Eric then took me to a scene, a memory in that life where I could rewrite it, where I could experience that lightness, that love, that laughter in that union.

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And so I talk about this all the time, but I love the experience of another lifetime because we can take something that seems so like heady, like I want to feel that way. I get why I should feel that way, but I feel the opposite. I want to feel that other way. We can get into this memory and actually have a full body experience to know what that feels like.

Neuroplasticity is your brain and your body and your nerve pathways ability to build neuron build new nerve pathways, strengthen already established nerve pathways for ways of thinking, ways of being, ways of moving, ways of talking. This has been proven over and over by science. And so when we can have a full body experience, an experience that feels like a memory, it feels like it's real based on the reactions in our body, we can ignite that within us.

And then we can like turn it on within us. It gets easier to feel next time. Next time you want to turn around resentment and be like, I want to see this in a different light. I don't have to see it this way. We can move into that state and we can do it by using this awareness. We can do it by using this memory. Just be in that memory, feel that feeling. So these lives are

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These lives are only for living and screwing up royally and learning. So now, since they're just the past and it doesn't really exist anymore, because the only thing that exists is this dimension of this eternal now. You can rescript that. You now rescript that life to learn from, and you rescript that.

So you can laugh intentionally and you create a mindset and you move to a point in that life, a moment of choice, where you could choose to move through that life in a different way. Either feeling resentful

and hardened or you can choose to move through it in a different way. We went back to one of the dinner scenes that my husband in that life and I in that life had been eating. So if you remember there was two dinner scenes where we were sitting at the table and one of the things that's going through my mind is like how much our relationship has disintegrated, has crumbled.

And how sad it is that our connection is just shit compared to what it used to be. And so Eric facilitated me going back to and reliving again one of those dinner scenes. We're eating soup. And I went home a long time alone. He's there eating with us.

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And normal yeah.

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Maybe be a little crabby about it.

But instead I try really hard and like

Find something to talk about that makes both of us laugh.

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See it from above. But not only see it but feel it from above. You can actually feel how that would feel different. Yeah. Can you feel that? Mm-hmm.

I don't know if you could tell in this clip, but in this clip the amount of joy and relief I feel watching this body it's like I could see from the body's point of view and kind of from a as if I was like drifting above the body. And it was like the difference I could see from both of us feeling like

what I assume is him feeling disconnected as well. He looked tired and just kind of like disappointed, exhausted, exacerbated, and I seemed like resentful and just not satisfied, unhappy. And when I pushed through and said something that made us both laugh, it would be like if the tension

was water and the water was like filled up to the ceiling. And the moment we start laughing, it's like someone pulled the plug and the water just drained. And the look in his face and he has like these beautiful big blue eyes. And they go from just being like almost like lifeless to like totally vibrant. And it's like someone turned the color up on this experience. And so what I'm feeling

which is like I'm kinda choked up at the end is just like this like pride that I was able to do that, that I have that power to do that, that I was then able to do it, because it wasn't easy to make that shift. And that I made the shift and the shift was like even better than I thought it would be. And to see the look in his eyes go from just kind of vacant to vibrant.

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and how much I loved him and how much I cared about him and being able to being able to do that for him and do it for me was just like this wave of relief and joy and love for myself, love for him, love for us together, and for the work we were doing. And it was it was amazing. We know like tiny

Tiny actions like this can change the trajectory of our lives, right? And so that's that's how you zoom out and heal in this modality of healing in a past life regression. So he had me move forward, move forward years in time to see the difference that this would make.

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Take

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He's walking home, he's walking through I guess our yard.

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And

I don't feel the only thing I feel is excitement to see him. 'Cause I've missed him.

And I run out and I give them a big hug. That feels so it's very powerful, very healing to have an experience like that where it's like, my gosh, this is what I knew was possible. And you have that experience, you get that memory, you get that full body memory and experience, and you can remember it later, you can bring it up in meditation, and you can reignite that within you. And I have with that scene.

And this might be actually the big the biggest surprise of it all right now. Right now in 2026, I haven't thought about this memory in a while, but I used to think about it often. And I used to feel love like that. And now, since getting a divorce, and even though I wanted it and even though it's a better fit, having

that idea of marriage and then coming out of it is a little traumatic. And then just honestly, the dating landscape right now, it's I'm trying to rewrite the story in my brain, but the current story is that it's a nightmare. It's a it's difficult out there. If you hear the stories, they're true. I would not trade where I'm at for the world. It does not make me want to be married again. But

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It is brutal out there. And I don't know why I feel like it's inappropriate when I talk about dating, but then because I question all the stories I tell myself, that comes up and it's like, why do I think that's inappropriate? It's not like I work in some corporate office and you guys are like, wait, what? Don't talk about that here.

So maybe I should actually dig into that. But what I will say, I have had multiple not great experiences in the romantic connection department. I've also had some really great experiences, but overall I've just become very guarded and in the meantime, have just been, you know, unrelated to that, creating a life that's very interesting and nourishing to me. So I've had some experiences where.

Right now I'm guarded enough where if I found myself so emotionally turned up by a romantic connection, a man, that I found myself running across a field to him when he was coming home from work, that I was so excited and I was so excited and that I was showing that excitement, that would be two very big red flags for me at this point.

And I don't always want it to be like that. And I want to feel that kind of love. Like I really want to feel that kind of love. And I've actually realized like that I don't think it's possible. And that I've always thought that. And I want to redo that story. And so it's kind of funny, 2026 Gina, listening to that, I'm like, shit, maybe that's my biggest takeaway right now is that I've been so.

So busted by the romance game and romantic connection that like that level of feeling is like red zone. No go for me right now. Like it's no, uh-uh. yeah, that is so interesting. That's the biggest surprise. If there were a lesson to be learned in that life, what would it be? To decide, decide.

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To live with intention. What do you want? And what do you want to focus on? And see what's most important. And then to live like it is the most important. Just to decide ahead of time what's important. And then to live like it is important. After that, Eric asked me a few more questions, and basically one of the questions illustrated like.

We came to this with the intention to kind of figure out, heal, let go of this fear of commitment. Like, did we do that? What else can we know about it? And what came up was clarity. It was like, this isn't a fear of commitment. You don't have a problem committing two things that you know feel 100% right. What this is is a fear of failure. And then with that clarity, we could ask better questions, obviously. And then asking my higher self just like

Things that I could focus on in relationship that would help me whatever I need to embody so I can alleviate this fear of failure as I move forward every single day. So I can get out of this space where I'm just unconsciously reacting to this fear of failure. All right. That was a nice little journey, not nearly as tough as I thought it would be. Very surprising. just that.

observation that came in about how feeling that much love and adoration for someone, just letting her buck, letting her flow, would be very uncomfortable for for me right now. And that was very illuminating. And I'm not saying I need to change that, but I would love to change that someday organically. I'm not gonna be working on that one.

Okay, let me tell you what is coming in our next episode. Okay, so as you know, on Sear Sessions, we're talking all about expanded awareness, like evolving views on consciousness, and how is hypnosis related to it all? So, evolving views on consciousness, evolving within consciousness. We talked about that here, obviously. That's like what this is all about. And then in our next episode, I'm gonna go a little bit deeper. Like I'm gonna go into

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Just like way back then, 2015-ish, 2013-ish, when I started getting into hypnosis, like what did I believe in terms of what we're doing here, past lives, spirit guides, that sort of thing? And then I'll talk about how I feel about those things now, because it's actually really pretty different. And then within those themes, it's like I I have these questions. Like I always have.

questions for like what is this life? What are we doing here? What is this energy that I'm feeling? And as my theories of what is happening change, of course my questions change. So I'm also going to be telling you a little bit about like the questions I used to ask a lot and how they're not really even relevant anymore. And now more so like what are my perspectives? What are the questions that I'm examining within my introspection, within my spiritual practice

Just reflecting and processing my life. And then another thing I'm gonna touch on, as I was going through just what I wanted to say about hypnosis and expanded awareness, I almost think of it as like this thesis of all the

work and study I've been doing personally in that realm in the last three years. And as I was just kind of thinking about that journey and outlining what did I want to cover on the Sear Sessions podcast, what did I want to cover in the membership on Patreon. And then of course thinking about my own personal journey weaved through all of that. The one thing that kind of came up over and over and it and it's interesting because if I wasn't doing this theme on the podcast this month,

I wouldn't even be thinking about it this consciously. but as I came up, it was like looking at the themes, looking at, you know, what I've been studying and naturally gravitating towards in the last few years. I'm like, you know what it is though? It's like the whole conversation really has to do with identity. Because as we expand our awareness and become aware more so of what's out there.

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We can also more easily just then turn and ride the flow of energy in the other direction and understand what's going on in here. And in that, we're able to just understand like our purpose, our place, where we belong, how we belong. And all of that relieves so much stress and anxiety. I think I used to get into a lot of people-pleasing behaviors.

Because I didn't know myself, I only knew how to keep other people around me who had been training me in the people pleasing department my whole life. I only knew how to do that to keep them happy. Even understanding my own needs was a real blind spot for a long time. And even when I was aware of, this is a blind spot, understanding how much was inside that blind spot was really difficult.

And all of this really just came down to the more I understand myself, the more I understand the world. The more grace and compassion I have for myself, the more grace and compassion I have for the people in this world. And all of that just keeps coming back to I have to know who I am. And that's why I do higher self-work. And that's why I never do spirit guide stuff anymore. I mean, I have spirit guides. I actually interact with spirit guides on a regular basis, but like

That's not who I'm going to for counsel. It's not who I'm going to when I'm like, should I do A or B? Why is this person so crazy? Why am how do I deal with this situation? I'm not going to spirit guides for that. And I don't think that's what they mean to do. I mean, we work on certain things together, but it's certainly not where am I going in life? It's almost like they're kind of more like project partners with me instead of like these guides that I used to think of them as.

Now I go to my higher self for it, right? I'm going to myself, my true self, the most true essence of me, the part of me that holds all the memories, all the plans, all the lessons, all the wisdom from those lessons and those lives. Why wouldn't I go to that part of myself? And in that is just like identity, because that's who I truly am. So just this idea kept coming up, and this theme kept coming up is identity. Who are we?

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Who are you? Who am I? What does that mean to me? What does that mean for my life? And of course, going into really how that informs my progression through what I used to believe about these hypnotic journeys and astral travel and consciousness and awareness, what I believe now, the questions I used to be concerned with, now the questions I'm concerned with. Of course, that has to do with like the person in the middle and identity. So it was like going through.

This month's materials and organizing what I was gonna say when. It was just this like cool blessing of like, I'm learning even more about myself. That this, yes, of course, this journey would be about like identity without being about identity. So I can't wait to dive into that conversation. Those are just my bullet points. I will be recording that in the next couple of days, but

I can't wait to dive into that conversation and then just to hear your responses and how you're doing on these journeys. that's one of my reasons for creating this, is that I want you all to not be burdened by it, of course, but to participate in that conversation. So after every intro to every audio file, every extra episode you guys get, there's questions, there's questions for this one. Read them. I would love to hear what you're thinking. If you have questions for me,

Send me a direct message. I know some of you have been, which has been cool. Send me a direct message or comment on these posts. I want to hear from you. So any question you have, I want to know. And guess what? I've got great boundaries. So if it becomes too much, I'll deal with it. It's all good. So let me know. I want to hear from you. And most of all, thank you for being here. Thank you for sharing your attention in this space and your focus.

of these things in the work that you do.