Hey everybody, I am currently in Joshua Tree, California. And I am about to go on a hike among the Joshua Trees and I just wanted to share this with you here at the end of the week. It's a recording, part of this is a recording that I talked into my phone and shared some of it with a friend.

About three months ago, so like January, it's April, so like January of 25. And what I'm talking about in this is just my exploration with the higher self, which I'll be sharing more of. And you can find a journey to your higher self, which I think is one of the most impactful things I've done on my journey. You can find the hypnotic journey to connect.

with your higher self on the little bonus goodies page for those people on my email list. And so I just wanted to share a little bit more about, I don't know, I guess the latest, biggest uncovering for me. So since summer, summer-ish, like late summer of 23, I just started to really clearly see

or awakened to all the ways that I kind of fucked myself over essentially. And what was clear back then was just like all the ways that I've held myself back, all the ways that my inner critic has dictated like the way I act and how I show up in the world. And it was just honestly kind of soul shaking.

For me, I'm not someone who just has one awakening. I feel like I have multiple awakenings. And I say that meaning awakening as the beginning part of a journey. I think a lot of people think of it as like, I'm awakened. Now what? You know, like I'm elevated. It should be easy now. And I think that if we're doing it right.

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staying engaged, staying curious, staying open-minded. We kind of awaken to these parts of us that pull us out of alignment with the life we came here to create. And that can mean so many different things for just one person in a lifetime, let alone everybody. So I just wanted to share this little about this kind of wrinkle in it, the latest wrinkle that I've found. So in...

in just kind of seeing all the ways I fuck myself over and really trying to get beyond that. And I went on a whole journey last year, as you know. And I've just been learning about that. Like, how do I fuck myself over? And then learning that and turning it to how can I use this energy, this knowing?

to fill up my cup, to shine even brighter, to take bigger steps toward the life I came here to create. And how does that change the way I show up in the world? So it's a long story. I'm trying not to be long-winded about it. But in this particular thread, one of the things I was also thinking about, which I know I'll dive into more later, is just my workload.

the hypnotic arts training, kinship membership, seeing clients, podcast, and then just all the behind the scenes things that go on and all the behind the scenes things that don't go on that I should start getting on if I wanna do what I wanna do. Anyway, it's almost like one way I hold myself back is like spreading myself too thin where it's...

this idea next where I need to pick a lane. I just give too much of my energy to too many things and sometimes that can end up being like just a conflict essentially even if I want to do it all. I only have so much time. It's only me right now and I'm just kind of spread too thin. So I was starting to see just these incongruencies of like how I move forward.

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and how it's almost like the idea of like you can't serve two gods. I don't know if you've heard that, to me, I don't know if I necessarily believe that, but what that means to me is I can't be working towards two things that pull me in two opposite directions. And I've been seeing this more and more in my life, and it's again an outgrowth of like seeing all the ways that I fuck myself over. And it was almost like,

What is the incongruency here? Like, why am I always, it's like, yes, I have a lot of ideas. I'm a super curious person. I am a 40 something year old single woman with no children. So I have a lot of time to work. What can, where, how am I always feeling out of alignment, spread too thin, like things aren't moving forward as they should? And.

That is just a question that's been rattling around in my mind. And then cut to, I don't know, three months ago or so, I did a higher self meditation, hypnotic journey, as I have been doing and will be sharing more of with you. And I realized that I don't believe in God. And I just thought that was really interesting. It was like, I want to believe.

in this type of God that I thought I believed in, but to want to believe in something is very different than actually believing in it, right? If I believe in something, I move forward with that in my heart. I move forward with that knowing. You know, maybe it's if I believe I have a safety net, that's a different feeling moving forward than if I fuck up, I am, you know, hitting rock bottom. So the way I see these things and believe these things...

and how there's like cracks in that foundation, all of it, right? So I was not intentionally looking to examine that piece, but that piece kind of, I don't know, I think that's the cool thing about trance is like we can go into these spaces searching for information and we start to see how so many of our questions are actually related to one issue at the root. And we've been led to that root in many different ways.

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So I went into this higher self meditation and realized that I did not believe in God. And I will just say, I can see how that changes the way I move forward. Since I recorded these audio messages that I'm gonna share with you in a little bit about this whole kind of revelation, I have changed again, the way I move forward and just being more intentional with.

the frequency in my heart, the beliefs I'm holding as I'm taking action, as I'm making plans for the future. So I just wanted to share this with you. And another thing I'm doing is kind of like almost building a case, maybe for me only, but building this case of like why it's not only good for me or good for you, I believe it's good for the whole fucking world to like get into contact with that higher self energy.

And other people's higher selves have explained to me that sometimes it's an energetic signature. It's an energetic address. It's a state of being as opposed to like my higher self. Someone else's higher self just explained its integration levels. So awakening is the first level and then we integrate beyond that, which I thought was really cool. I'll be sharing all of that with you. But I first wanted to share this with you.

to just show the cool benefits that we can get when we access this higher wisdom within ourselves and how we can hold wisdom and knowing that we're not aware of in our conscious mind. And anytime we have something that's conflicting in our subconscious mind or something in our subconscious mind conflicts with what we think is going on in our conscious mind.

It can create all kinds of problems in our lives, whether it's like a creative block or we think we're moving forward and checking all the boxes, but things just aren't working out. It can be like, well, I go toward this goal, but every time I do, I feel triggered and I always end up in this negative spot. Like, so much of that is like, to me, what I'm seeing right now in congruencies between what I truly believe and what I think I believe.

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So going into this subconscious mind state, this trance, this transcendental state, we can, we can get a greater view, a broader view, a wiser view on who we are and how we're operating. And so I'm going to share just some thoughts I had on that a couple of months ago. And then, yeah, I just want to say to me when, and you'll hear it in these, but it really is when I know

my higher self, what I'm calling my higher self, this more divine version of myself and the gifts and the power it holds. I not only operate differently in my life, more compassionately, in a more confident way, I'm not unconsciously being controlled by fear, trying to fill a black hole within me that'll never be filled. It really is a way to truly understand

and nourish ourselves and then we are more able to and primed to, if you're doing it right, eventually start seeing other people in that way. And I think that this world could use it. So I'm gonna share that audio file. In the audio file, I'm doing some other things so you'll hear like water running, I think, at some point if I didn't edit it out. But these are files that I shared with a friend.

And I just thought, why not share them with you? Maybe you could get something from it. Anyway, I'm always curious what you guys think. So if you wanna share some thoughts, just hit reply to the email. I love hearing them, even if it takes me a few days to get back to you. All right, enjoy. I just wanted to check in and be like, hey, Hi Yourself, any more info or 3D words that you can give me about what the fuck Hi Yourself is? Like, what is this exactly?

Like how do I describe it in many different ways? So I just wanted to check in with that. And I have asked that question before and I haven't gotten answers, but this time it was different. And I know that things can change. I know that I can watch the same movie twice or read the same book twice and have a completely different reaction to it based on where I'm at in my life. And so the same would be true with that. So if I remember...

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When I'm going in, I just like to kind of try to get clarification on like, what is the higher self? You know, like how many ways can I explain this mostly to myself? Cause I doubt this shit a lot. That's of course. Anyway, in that explanation, it was like my higher self took the explanation before, which was like, you know, right where this energy kind of branches off from source.

and you begin, like, you know who you are and you can look back and always see who you were in every situation, even if you don't feel like who you are. You can look to like when you were a kid and kind of see through lines there. that's, you know, a big indicator. It's not everything of who you are and you can always change it. So if you don't like it, maybe that's why it came to figure that out.

And so it was like my higher self was like connecting that dot again and just kind of like reinforcing that. I was like seeing different ways, seeing more ways of, you know, things that are me. A lot of times a client will come and they will be like, I'm also curious, like what makes me me? What's been me the same me every other lifetime? And I, I have that question too. And I think it's so fun to get those answers.

And so as someone who has done so many past life regressions, I see that, like, and I feel that part of me and I just like really enjoy that part of me. And so in this, my higher self was like really showing me not only the me part of it, it's like you plus divine and the higher self is like.

just, you know, just right when the U combines with source energy, you know, when it kind of branches off into its own like tentacle on the octopus. And so this time it was like kind of a review of that, like different things coming in, like I said, and then it was like more so about the source of this tentacle, you know, God, creator,

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source, the highest, you know, where is this coming from? And I've also been, this is such a long, long story. Of course, it's so layered. It's never just one thing, but I've been listening to, actually, the book Conversations with God. Neil Donald Walsh is the author. And in this book, the way God is described, all of that, makes...

It not only makes sense to like my personal critical brain, which people have told me maybe isn't critical enough and take it for what it's worth. And also like just really make sense based on all the work I've done in trance myself, all the work I've done with clients in trance, exploring those kind of realms and dimensions and states of being.

And it made so much sense. It made sense as to like why we're here and the idea that we come back to learn lessons. I mean, is grad, I don't know, works on some level for me, but pretty short term, I held that and then was kind of like, but why, but like, why, like, why do I need to learn lessons though? And like, why do I have to evolve? It just all seems very,

I don't know, just a very earthly way to think about things and I think that it doesn't make sense and it's probably not like that at all.

Yes, I think that a soul is expanding and a body is contracting and I think that we will always want to grow and expand and a part of us will always be a little bit afraid of that for some reason or uncomfortable from that for some reason. But like, what's the point? Like, who are we learning lessons for? And like, who's the judge of whether I've learned a lesson or not?

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and why are they in charge? What's their agenda? So it never resonated with me. So in the book, Conversations with God, it was like, yes, this feels so right. Like, it's so right. So I've also been like actively re-listening to that book just so I can have...

just so I can kind of cement that point of view because when I also take on a point of view like that, it not only makes my past make sense, but I'm a lot less anxious for my future. So.

You I can choose whatever I want. Anyone can choose whatever they want. No one knows. No one knows. And I used to say, no one knows until you're dead, but like, I don't know. Maybe you never even know. Maybe you don't know then. Maybe you're just like onto the next fucking dream or nightmare, whatever your belief system is. So anyway, so I've had that. Those have been thoughts that have been.

not only growing within me, but like intentionally I'm meditating on them, I'm exploring them myself. And this is just one way I have explored it with what I'm sharing with you, this higher session part where my, or my higher self session, where my higher self was then kind of zooming in on this blob of energy where this tentacle of Gina comes off of it. And...

It was like in my mind, I was like, yeah, this is the benevolent force, God, creator. And because in hypnosis, you're attuned to the subtleties, I noticed just the slightest repulsion in my body. And I was like, what was that? And I like, you know, replayed the tape in my brain and it was like, I don't believe that's true. I don't believe that. Like I want.

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to want it. I want to believe it, but I'm mistaking that for actually believing it. I don't believe that at all. And if that's the source of it all, and I don't fucking believe it, like, you know, I don't know what's happening. I don't know if we really have control, but I gotta think if I do, which I think I do actually have quite a bit of control, that that...

belief affects it, that I don't believe in the fucking source of it all. So of course I would get this far out and be like, what the fuck? don't, this is really, what is going on? Like now I'm having an existential crisis about it in this lifetime. So, and then my higher self was kind of like, yeah dude, that's why we're here. And okay, so.

It was also like, then I was reminded in this Conversations with God book, just the constant reminder from God of like, you are a God, you're creating this. Like you are creating it. And at the very least, even in the greatest injustice in front of you, that is not your creation and not your fault. And it's someone else's bullshit. You are still creating.

by filling in parts of the story, by holding on that it's personal or by just holding the weight of it in general and like taking it in and having emotional reactions about it and stuffing them or not dealing with it. It's like, yes, all of that, but even in that we're creating an experience. And so life is not a discovery, it is a creation.

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That I believe. And so it was just like, this is the creative source. It's not good, it's not bad. I can say something as good as bad or bad because it's a relative term. It's like what I think is good or bad or what the group thinks is good or bad or what the planet thinks is good or bad. It doesn't.

actually mean it's good or bad, like we make it, but that's the thing, we're God, we are taking that energy and creating it to mean something for us. And in that, it's like, no matter what is in front of you, we always have that creative power.

And we, it is always running through us, like the wind running through the trees. This creative power is always running through it. And it manifests out and we can, you know, catch a motivation wave. We can catch an idea. We can do the thing. We can make the thing. We can connect with someone else and make kind of a relationship thing. Like we're always creating.

And so it was like, so it's like, I'm the personality that like mixes with that creative force, like a wind through the trees. It's that energy coming through. And it's like how I've been really like taking source energy and wiping it through my whole field in meditation and then down into the earth. it's like,

this constant revolution of energy within me and energy within like all of me in all of my lifetimes and all of me in just this lifetime and I can decide what to do with it and yes my world is affected by assholes and fucked up systems and people who take too much

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and people who don't give enough. But I, even in that, I am creating.

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And so in that I was like, I just kind of like said it. was like, that's what I believe. I believe it's source and I believe it's like a blank canvas, but kind of the opposite. Like no one's really a canvas because that's too static in this, but like.

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We all have that and in that, I know and see myself clearly. The part that's closest to divine, the part that's unique from divine. And I can love that and get curious about that. So it's not, is this jacket in style? Should I wear this jacket? It's, how does Gina look in that jacket?

That's the question. Now, does it in style? Nope. It's not about a dress code. It's about like me being like the most me in that moment. Like based on what I want to wear and the look I want to go for.

So here's the thing, I get cute, I love myself, I do shit for myself, we have a lot of fun, me and myself. We're fucking creating. We're creating even in the bullshit.

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When I do that, when I shine all that love on myself, it fills my cup. And then guess what? I look around me and I'm like, shit, I'm having so much fun seeing like how I.

me me me me through every lifetime. What's my highest self-version? What is me? What is the me that I could express the most with this creative energy that flows through me to me around me lifts me up like What can I do with that? What's the most me fucking life that I can create and Get curious about it and work hard for it

And when your cup is filled, you're naturally going to be like, wow, I'm awesome. And then just like we always do, it's like the shine wears off and we look for more awesome things, right? So it's like you kind of get filled up on you. You don't want to stop doing that because you'll notice that, but you can't get like the high you used to get of like, getting curious about who you are.

then you look at the people around you and you're like, shit, all these people that I've been controlling and quote, helping them, I used to do it all the time. Man, they benefit from this, but you know what? I am so fucking curious who they are.

in this whole creative flow thing. Like what are they creating? And anything I say or do is going to help them stay alive, stay balanced and nourished or whatever if you're a parent. But like I'm gonna help this, do whatever I can to just like, I'm not even helping. I'm just like literally just want to watch this being be the most them that they can be.

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I'm honestly, yes, that makes so much sense that if I am enjoying that part of myself, I would turn to you and be like, and you, how are you amazing? know, like it's like when people become like these prophets or cult leaders or, know, fucking spiritual gurus, it's like what I think is the future. What I think is the future is that.

People are like, you're amazing. You do all these things. And it's like, hey, I'm amazing. I do all these things. Do these things with me. But then I turn around and I go, I'm really good at this. But I'm not better than you. I might be better at you than doing what I'm doing.

But I'm not better than you. Like now I'm even more curious about you and your gifts and how you're special. There can be, especially in the spiritual community, this air of superiority. Like they're up here and we're just down here. Yeah, but if you were all really elevated, you would see that we're all the same. You're good at that, she's good at that. They're really good here, you're really good there.

no one is above, get curious about how your magic and get curious about how everyone else's magic. That's what it is. Live in inspiration and curiosity.